Solus

September 25th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

so sleek

WordPress iOS

September 25th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

Just got the wordpress app for iPhone! Should be great for blogging throughout the day.

Flow

September 25th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

The calmer one’s mind, the more one perceives Reality immediately.  The description of this Reality can fall under both change and calm.  Though we tend to think of calm as unchanging and crystalline, I am coming to understand this definition as biased by the desire for control, and the symptom of a tired mind.  In modern America, our subconscious is filled with rote definitions that fit well within a system of authority and control.  We think we need to be right because, in large part, we were taught by adults who needed to be right.  Perhaps they misread our desires and attributed false motives to us.  Perhaps they lacked tools to help us grow into maturity.  By adding fresh, calm perception, the need to grasp and define can become apparent and can be released.  From immediate perception, the appropriate action can be taken, infinite numbers of steps can be accomplished to develop the long-term plan.  The performance is Immanent, rather than mediated by thinking through expectations and formulations.  I feel this is in contrast to a morality built upon transcendent “oughts.”  Laudably, a transcendent morality aims for the activation of potential, yet can often habitualize a confusing comparison between what is and what ought to be.  How long one spends on this game-board, whether it be a few seconds, or years, is secondary to the possibility of potent action in every situation.  The realization of this can be put into the subconscious so that learning from life is always a process rooted in the present.  This calmness fosters growth without abstract effort, without feeling one ought to be growing more, and fills the present with an understanding of reality as dynamic flow.

Bikram Yoga

September 18th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

I purchased a Groupon for a month of Bikram Yoga, and I’m pleased to be getting back into it. Bikram was my first extended experience with classroom yoga, about a year ago. From there I went on to try Corepower’s heated vinyasa flow and then this summer I completed the teacher training 200 hour program at Corepower Yoga NW. I felt the need for a break, however, and so I’m checking out some other studios, looking for new and affordable options. Yoga can get expensive! There’s so many studios in Portland, though, that a person can bounce around for awhile, trying out classes within introductory packages. But I had already done the month for 30 dollars at Bikram Hall Studio so when I saw this Groupon I snapped it up. It’s back to Bikram and it only cost 30 dollars for another month.

There’s no music played in a 90 minute Bikram class and the temperature is at about 105 degrees.  Since I have done a lot more yoga during this past year, the Bikram class seemed a lot stranger than when I first participated.  It can be a kind of torture.  I was asking myself why we were all putting ourselves through this gross experience; it’s extremely hot and everyone is just dumping sweat.  However, once you get past the standing series and move to the ground, the class turns into a sort of heady meditation.  The back bends in particular really opened me up, and the corpse poses between each ground pose give mini-breaks during which life realizations can flow into your awareness.  It’s the next day and I feel great; looks like every other day or third day will be my schedule for the month.  Since the weather is getting cooler the classes will become even more appealing.  Bikram is a great practice for me at this point in time.

two options

September 18th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

“When the anesthetic of being right is truly removed, change will occur, for from that vantage point one can only become mad or wise. Once awakened, the wound must heal or be forever scratched.”

I was thinking through this at Ava Roasteria a couple nights ago. I was sitting on the leather loveseat, writing out a short story, and frequently looking around the shop. A sense hit me that I really didn’t know much about the people who were coming in and out, who were sitting around. I could apply labels and quick judgements based on my past experiences, but these were not necessarily accurate. And the same realization applied to my physical surroundings, in a way. Usually I interpret the room I’m in based on unconscious patterns, or categories. As in, how I decide where I want to sit at Ava; it’s based on what is available and how much pleasure I think I can get by sitting in a certain spot.

But if I let all those safety mechanisms fall away, I am left with a flush of sensory perceptions and ever-new situations. And it’s scary, and seemingly unmanageable. I think this is one reason why people live with “purpose.” We don’t know how to live in the ever-new world, and so, for the most part, we allow our mind to assign meanings based on past experience and judgements. Yet if I engage with the process of sensitization, I believe I can find a way to live in the world without being run by my mind clicks. And for a sensitized person, I think being aware necessitates a movement towards madness, that is, being unable to cope with the reality of not-knowing, or towards healing the mind’s incessant habit of labeling.

Feedback

April 4th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

Today in my pocket I found a little post-it note written by me in pencil a while ago. It read “see the illusion by the reality surrounding it.” I really like that, particularly because I am reading so many new ideas in my communication program. I think it’s difficult, maybe even impossible, to deal directly with an illusion one has; it’s like trying to see vision. For me, it is usually surrounding ideas and convictions that change the illusion or modify the idea, rather than a direct and forceful altering of something. I take reality to be interconnected, and truth to be the apprehension of these relationships. This is quite different than a hierarchy, in which some concepts trump others, in which convictions must be sacrificed for Right to occur, for Truth to win. An anxious mind needs to feel that all loose end are tied up, that the ratio has been established, while a calm mind understands the changing body, understands that problems can be dealt with as they arise in reality, in connection with other phenomena.

The Humanist

March 21st, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

Saké

March 21st, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

Emerson Quote

March 19th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

“The first wealth is health.”

Stamina

March 19th, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

Keep breaking your heart
into finer and finer pieces
until the dust is in the air you breathe.

Keep finding your way into the shadow,
the unknown,
until satiety is what you have,
not what you need.

Keep stretching your trunk,
finding the pain of realizing
how long you have been shorted.

And keep feeling the sickness of desire,
for only the sensing soul can both feel and act
on what will be made right in our world.